Aug 29 2008
Back 2 School Anxiety
You would think that those of us who have done the whole back to school thing SO many times would have it down by now, wouldn’t you? I mean come on - this coming Tuesday will be what… my 19th or 20th “first day” as a student…that doesn’t count several years of teaching - and then I had two kids too…. I have a TON of back to school first day experience.
And still I fuss and stress… and have a knot in my gut. Already… it’s Friday… still have 3 more sleeps! 
Some of the knot is not directly a result of back to school anxiety, I think… there’s a bunch that is related to leaving hubby *POUT*
Not that I’m really LEAVING him, you understand!
But he is working here for a few more weeks … and the university is really too far for commuting (I would if I could though!!!!) … so for the first few weeks we will be apart during the week. I have a motel room booked … it works out cheaper to go with a weekly rental on a housekeeping suite for 8 months than to get caught in a 12 month lease, so we’re trying it this way for now … and I will come home on weekends.
I do not like that!
Some of the knot is kidShit … my 2 kids are both college graduates now - and both of em really badly NEED TO FIND JOBS.. like yesterday! Moving youngest in with oldest this weekend… so some stress related to that more than to my first day at school on Tuesday.
But yeah… some of it is clearly just good old back to school impending first day anxiety. Will I fit in? What if they don’t like me? What if I can’t do the work? What if I get lost? Where will I park? What should I wear? Oh yeah - and just because I’m ~special~ …I have one more to worry about than most people… What if I fall down go boom and embarass myself? Should I warn them that I sometimes fall down go boom and embarass myself - or just pray a lot? What if I DO fall down go boom and someone calls an ambulance? ACK!!!
It is soooooooooooo easy to get oneself all worked up about starting something new…. and starting a new school year is most definitely something new!
Fortunately, in only 4 more sleeps, the worst will be over! And chances are that everything will have sorted itself out, and the knot in my stomach will be much smaller, if not gone entirely… and then I will no doubt be ready to laugh at myself!
After all - what’s the worst that can happen?
